Words

Memang betul seperti apa yang orang tua-tua cakap, " Mata pena lebih tajam daripada mata pedang" . Sometimes words that coming out of the mouth, although we did not mean it or we did or nid not realized they will hurt or make somebody. They will change your life temporarily or forever.

Here are the example of them:

1. "Maybe depa nak kami lebih bersemangat sikit" - I've said to one of my close friend when she said that the volleyball team is still looking for player for PPM ( Piala Perdana Menteri). actually I have been chosen for the team. I didn't mean what I've said but she feel hurt that means that she did not good enough to join the team

2. "Dua-dua pun boleh fail?"- I failed my first driving license exam. yep both "bukit" and "jalan raya". Yeah I already feel bad about it then this "orang tua" mana tah like suoervisor said like that to me when I went to him to take my slip. I almost cry because yes, I failed both but you don't have to say it.

3. " Ala.. tak semua orang lulus sekali ambik ja" - well luckily this words come out of my father mouth after that. You don't know how good does it feels when my father said that. Although I'm still hurt,embaressed and angry, but stills I'm feel at least someone who understand me. ( although it took me one month to recover myself and took another test, which I passed, wohooo.)

4. "Dah ada kereta kelisa, nak tengok ke?" - Well that evening i went to my ex-colleagues second hand car dealer( actually his brothers') because i did said to him that I'm THINKING I want to buy a car. I'm THINKING only, I'm not that serious. But what the hell I just went they to see it. But when the first time I lay my eyes on that gold kelisa, I did fell in love. I don't know what it is but it seems right and don't want to let go it. I said yes already althought at the back of my mind I'm thinking, how the hell I'm going to pay for it. Luckily Imanage to get full loan, and the car is mine. I named it"Chi·qui·ta"

a female given name: from a Spanish word meaning “small.”


Well , I think after that my luck begin to change where I finally began to do more and more outside job and finally become of what I'm doing now. My car is like my main "sumber rezeki". ( that's why I'm pissed of when my aut crash my car, but that is another story). Syukur that until now, there is no major "kerosakan" although it is a second hand car. I love you chiquita.

5. " You look beautiful" - Ok this happen recently in my trip to Seremban. this most cutest, beautiful 6 years old girl 9 mix parentage his father is Australian and mother is Chinese) said that to me. At first I didn't hear it, then I said ha? then she said it again. Well, I did expert to hear it from other counterpart but I did not expect to hear it from the most cutest girl I've seen. I mean it supposed to be me saying that to her. well kid did say the darnest things, aren't they?

Back then....

Just to resfresh my memories what were I thinking when I was a young and naive ( still ) girl.

1. I though that the earth is Malaysia punya, meaning other countries have their own plant -( maybe I watch too much "The Jetsons" cartoon)

2. I thought that we can buy baby from hospital. Yes, that is what my father told me when I asked where my baby brother come from. But I always suspect it was not true. It confirm when when I study Science subject in Form 3, chapter 1.

3. When we go to other state we need passport. Seriously I believe it until I was in standard 3.

4. I was puzzle how can Mariah Carey could sing lead and back-up at the same time, this is when I saw her in "Fantasy" music video when she lipsync both lead and back-up parts.At first, I thought that maybe they are back-up singers sound like her until i learn about recording studio, mixing sounds. But it really puzzle me.

5. I have my own e-mail when I was in 1st year of university. Back then, I don't know how e-mails and internet look like.

6. I thought "Dutchlady" ( milks) is the name of the girl on the milk.

7. I thought that "orang dulu-dulu" is not colourful at all( from P. Ramlee black and white films).

8. I thought that sardine is the the name of fishes inside the tin.

9. I thought that there is a job of " stamping money" or in Malay" tukang cop duit" because my mom always said that " You thought your father kerja cop duit ke?"

10. I thought that bad things will never happen to me, well, that is my biggest mistake.

All These Things That I've Done

Lagu ni adalah one of my favourite song. I just want to dedicate this song for those who I've hurt before. Like yesterday. Kadang -kadang kita marah dan secara tak sengaja telah mengeluarkan ayat-ayat berbisa ( pen is mightier than sword, but in my case "e-mail is mightier that sword) I don't know what I'm trying to do here. Am I mean person, sending that e-mail to that person? Should I just keep quiet like I always did? I don't know. I should know better that I should not sent them, but I guess that I'm so angry to let that person get away. Now, the person is hurt and crying because of what I've did. I think. I alreadyy apologies for soooo many times. So now only time can tell.....

"All These Things That I've Done"
When there's nowhere else to run
Is there room for one more son
One more sonIf you can hold on
If you can hold on, hold on

I wanna stand up, I wanna let go
You know, you know - no you don't, you don't
I wanna shine on in the hearts of men
I wanna mean it from the back of my broken hand
Another head aches, another heart breaks
I am so much older than I can take
And my affection, well it comes and goes
I need direction to perfection, no no no no

Help me out
Yeah, you know you got to help me out
Yeah, oh don't you put me on the back burner
You know you got to help me out

And when there's nowhere else to run
Is there room for one more son
These changes ain't changing me
The gold-hearted boy I used to be

Yeah, you know you got to help me out
Yeah, oh don't you put me on the back burner
You know you got to help me outYou're gonna bring yourself down
Yeah, you're gonna bring yourself down
Yeah, you're gonna bring yourself down

I got soul, but I'm not a soldier
I got soul, but I'm not a soldier

Yeah, you know you got to help me out
Yeah, oh don't you put me on the back burner
You know you got to help me out
You're gonna bring yourself down
You're gonna bring yourself down
Yeah, oh don't you put me on the back burner
You're gonna bring yourself down
Yeah, you're gonna bring yourself down
Over and in, last call for sin
While everyone's lost, the battle is won
With all these things that I've done
All these things that I've done
If you can hold onIf you can hold on