10 May 2011

Song that I feel right now....

Get It Right

What have I done? I wish I could run
Away from this ship goin' under
Just tryin' to help, hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is
On my shoulders
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight
Can I start again with my faith shaken?
'Cause I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes
But if I get stronger and wiser
I'll get through this
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
[ From : http://www.elyrics.net/read/g/glee-cast-lyrics/get-it-right-lyrics.html ]
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
So I throw up my fist
Throw a punch in the air
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
Yeah, I'll send down a wish
Yeah, I'll send up a prayer
And finally, someone will see
How much I care!
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight

10 Apr 2011

There's gotta be more to life...

I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let go

[Chorus]
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more

I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half way out the door
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing

[repeat chorus]

Than waiting on something other than this life day to day 
Why am I feelin' like there's something I missed.....



I like this song and the video clip is superb...now I just wondering in my life waiting what will happen next. Is not I'm down or something but it just I'm living without knowing what happen next. I don't have a big plan and I can't see my self in the next 10 years and even in the next year.


Sometimes I feel like I am a floating seeds that just go wherever the wind blows me. Of course I am grateful for my life, I am grateful for my family, I mean I'm going to be an aunty soon. I have great friends although they are not understand me at all, I have a room (rented) that cover me from rain and sun, I have car, my lovely chikita that is integral for my work and bring me anyway I want. 

I've got job that nowadays kinda stressing but still can cope and I do need to work to live, and basically I have no complain in my life it just I feel I'm missing something...perhaps many people would say about love, marriage and baby but how would I missing something that I don't have from the beginning?


Sometimes I just wondered when do my life begins? after I got married? having kids?grandchildren? Do I have to do like "Eat, Pray, Love" to find myself? would i able to let go?


I am thinking that I need to do something different for my life, when I was chatting in travelling forum, I was complaining because there is nobody want to travel with me next year and one of forumer suggested I went travel solo, at first I was opposed of the idea and then when I think back, why not? I could learn something about myself and it is different from what I'm doing now..


I'm just babbling and feeling like tired of doing the same thing again and again. So the first step I'm going to do is to change the theme for this blog...and to coming out with more challenging activities...just wait! By the way enjoy some motivational quotes that help me to summerize my feelings!






7 Mar 2011

31 years old

I'm 31 years old and one day today, how do I feel? Nothing changed just add "1" to 30 only. Still not accomplished what I want to accomplish and still single. Not feeling as loser though as I have many things to thank for in my life.

My life is still not as stable as before, with additional workload and trying to grab everything in short time, I feel like a pile of garbage was thrown on me and I'm trying the best way to find my way into "the light". Sometimes I feel can I do this? and why should I do this?

It's not that I'm complaining but I do feel that I can't breath sometimes..and keep reminding myself that I can do this and be patient. I'm trying to focus on positive things and trying to hope that I still can achieve my dreams and to explore what is my capability and why am I here.

I just live my life one day at the time as I refuse to think about the future, actually I am afraid to think about my future because the ability not knowing it scares me a lot.

I just know that Allah has His plan for me and with all my heart I believe in Him.

Family trip to UK

Salam semua.... Ya, I know I have gone for too long. It is all because of my stupid laptop need to be repaired and actually I was away for...