10 Apr 2011

There's gotta be more to life...

I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let go

There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more

I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half way out the door
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing

[repeat chorus]

Than waiting on something other than this life day to day 
Why am I feelin' like there's something I missed.....

I like this song and the video clip is superb...now I just wondering in my life waiting what will happen next. Is not I'm down or something but it just I'm living without knowing what happen next. I don't have a big plan and I can't see my self in the next 10 years and even in the next year.

Sometimes I feel like I am a floating seeds that just go wherever the wind blows me. Of course I am grateful for my life, I am grateful for my family, I mean I'm going to be an aunty soon. I have great friends although they are not understand me at all, I have a room (rented) that cover me from rain and sun, I have car, my lovely chikita that is integral for my work and bring me anyway I want. 

I've got job that nowadays kinda stressing but still can cope and I do need to work to live, and basically I have no complain in my life it just I feel I'm missing something...perhaps many people would say about love, marriage and baby but how would I missing something that I don't have from the beginning?

Sometimes I just wondered when do my life begins? after I got married? having kids?grandchildren? Do I have to do like "Eat, Pray, Love" to find myself? would i able to let go?

I am thinking that I need to do something different for my life, when I was chatting in travelling forum, I was complaining because there is nobody want to travel with me next year and one of forumer suggested I went travel solo, at first I was opposed of the idea and then when I think back, why not? I could learn something about myself and it is different from what I'm doing now..

I'm just babbling and feeling like tired of doing the same thing again and again. So the first step I'm going to do is to change the theme for this blog...and to coming out with more challenging activities...just wait! By the way enjoy some motivational quotes that help me to summerize my feelings!

Melbourne - The mountain, the sea and the city Part 2 -Brighton Bathing Boxes and Puffing Billy

Salam all, yep a little bit busy. In fact I have been working in outstation for one month now. So that is why slow updates. So let continue,...